Depression

[GQtdauto]

So...

Has now been a little over 6 years since I was able to work.
People ask how do I manage, I answered honestly.
"I don't know, just do."
However, I now think I have reached the point where rationality and sanity have fallen out the window.
Every day is a struggle.
Can't think straight.
Have a very short fuse.
Just feel useless.

Just don't know what to do...

Sorry fellas.
Just needed an outlet.

I'm into my ninth year now and despite having to wear a foot brace and special shoes most of the time and the weird toilet habits the pain was finally something I could live with , I lost my working life , social life and most if not all of my friends .
In January I had a minor operation to remove a cyst from my right wrist which didn't go to plan , the surgeon cut a vein and nerves ,now I'm struggling to do anything with the right hand and it's getting worse , the constant burning sensation caused by the cut nerves is bad enough but trying to use the right hand like I used to only to get stabbing pains and like electric shocks has put me back nine years .
Only thing is I know what I'm in for because I've been there before , just waiting for the black dog to show up and start following me around again .
But there are ways of making the mutt disappear and getting back to a half normal life mate .