Yesterday I asked AB to return everyones money as I cannot see this working... he has refused my request so far.

The cheapest and easiest option is looking like a whole engine but this does not look to be achievable with the funds at hand.

I have lowered the price on my rifle to $700 which makes me want to vomit and even with money I can scrape it will leave me short by a fair bit.

I reached a low point yesterday with some serious depression sinking in and with severe tonsillitis and being so sick this is not helping my mental state.

I still think I should walk away but this is hard to do as I love 4wding and being in the bush so much and was so close to finally have a set up I could depend on and be happy with.

I am still so very sick and maybe not thinking clearly but I am so tired of this all.... when the engine went on the Hume I wanted to walk straight out onto the freeway in front of a truck but my family would have been the only ones to suffer not me.

I am not looking for advice about what I should do I am just venting as my wife not being here is hard with no adults to talk to.....

I want to thank those that have been so generous and if things dont work out AB will return your money as I am not going ahead unless it is doable.