WOW.......... first,thanks BA for opening the door on this issue.
I was at a stage in my life where i was always grumpy yelling at my wife and kids all the time,no matter whatever i did i just did'nt feel happy.
Now i have never had thoughts of selfharm BUT often when i was driving to or from work i would find myself thinking about just driving untill i run out of fuel and see where i ended up and then go from there,i honestly thought no body would miss me.
My wife convinced me to go the doctor and i was told i have depression,nuh not me no way im a happy guy like a good laugh and shitstir ive never tought about killing myself,the doc gave me some paperwork to do and when i sat down and read it i realived that alot on that sheet was ME.
I never spoke to any mates about i thought it was consdiered weak and would often think to myself toughen up you weak prick get over it,but once it has you it won't let go.
As it is my family and and a handfull of good mates are the only ones that know.
After reading this im not alone and weak,so thanks BA
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