Today I dropped my daughter off to school and was left with an empty feeling that I thought I had shaken last year.
We thought she started back on Monday and only found out yesterday she was to go today and it started to sink in then, I already miss her and in the past was never bothered and even welcomed it for a bit of space.
Last year I went through the worst depression I had in nearly 17 years and even though I was aware of what I was going through and recognized the symptoms I could not shake it, it was like a dark cloud over me and it would not go away.
I am not sure if it is the cold weather all of a sudden plus being so run down from our trip away but I felt that cloud again and it scared me a little.
I think I am smart enough and know I have a lot going for me that I would never go through the thoughts I went through when I was young, I just find it strange that I have such an understanding of it but the cloud is still there???
Friends never really understand, they say they do but don't.... I don't want sympathy just a friend that is unwavering and truthful to the end.
I have lot of new mates thanks to this place and enjoy the company and don't want to bring people down but voice my feelings out loud so they make sense and I don't burden my wife who has enough on her plate .
Anyway I will go make myself a cuppa and see where that takes me.
Thanks for listening...