Depression

[BigRAWesty]

Well gents and ladies. Tis time I spoke up.

As some may have noticed I've pulled out from the Simpson trip and I'll try my best to explain my situation..

To put it simply, broke as a skunk.
But it's not a bad broke. I have a spending issue. Have always had money trouble. No matter what I'm doing I cant hold money, it burns holes in my pockets.

My last hobby I had to quite as my spending was uncontrollable. Credit cards maxed, mortgage sometimes got missed it got that bad.
So I sold it all. Not an Rc thing left.

Well I did well for 6 months. Things were looking good. And then I started the Patrol.
Well I've pretty much blown 3500 bucks from a redraw facility via a farking high 14% interest loan on Jack shoit.
It's still just a GQ..
And worst of all I've been hiding it all.
I'm not sure why I hid it. But the wife found out. She was pissed to say the least. As it was second time she nearly walked out..

So pretty much that's it.
I have contacted life line and our local support network for assistance with money issues.
On a side note no wonder why there are so many suicides this time of year. 3-4 week wait to see someone. Crazy.

Anyway. Yea. I won't be making the Simpson.
And now with this farking varicose vain issue that's another couple thou gone.

Once this patrol is finished I'll be going quite for a while. Westy's Accessories will probably be rested for a while, not that it's booming anyway..
And I'll be hopefully putting demons and veins to rest.

Anyway, everyone have a wonderful Christmas and New years.
Cheers