I have to admit the missus has been there for me through it all.
We knew each other, but sort of got together after she pulled me back from the edge a couple of times
Especially over the last couple of years of not being able to work from back issues. She had plenty of reasons to walk, but just kept on without even blinking an eye.
I think at the moment, for me, the hours she is at work are the hard ones.
Even when she's sleeping, it makes things easier just to know the house isn't empty...
And it is very, very true. People say that they understand, they know what you are going through, but (and I know you will agree) without being there, they can't even begin to imagine how dark of a place you can be.
Finding others who can share your experiences (as I have seen on here) looks to be a better step in the right direction than many other options and recommendations out there.
Evo