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Mate I read it before you deleted it and cannot pretend to know what you must be going through.. you always seemed like a hard bastard but am not surprised by your post as it is some of the biggest hardest SOB's that have the biggest crosses to bare.
You need not feel this is a weakness sharing how you feel mate and it goes along way to helping get some clarity... it's not about sympathy just someone to talk to.
I have not had to medicate but at a young age of 41 my body is broken... I laugh and carry on and most would never know but I worry every day I am falling apart (body) and this weighs heavily on me.
Doggy there are many on here who are willing to listen and talk to... ( plenty your own age of 103 years old) so make the effort you will be surprised how good you will feel just talking out loud what goes on inside your head mate.
My wife read what I wrote all those months ago and started crying... bloody hell!!!
Hey mate,
I am fortunate to still be able to read your post, all good mate, your a Statesman here. Sometimes being a Mod means we are not always the popular one, oh well, the forum is better for it.
Mate I'm a big bloke and worked with my hands for many years, I'm a couple of years older than Jonno and can't believe the strength I have lost over the last few years. My arms are shot, my legs are shot, I have a big guts from sitting behind a desk.
But I hang here with a great bunch of blokes and thank Fark for that!!!!! These blokes are great.
I hug my kids every day and take Zach every time I go off road and treasure it.
You should be proud of your roll here mate, I am and appreciate you and the other Mods.
On a lighter note, my dad decided to take his weeks medication in one go about 3 weeks ago! 84 tabs. He was having a massive blue with Mum over my Brother and Money. He opted out. Mum thought he was just attention seeking and ignored the threat. 2 hours after doing this he decided it was not a great idea and called his chemist for advice, his chemist called an Ambulance and he was in ICU for 3 days before being transferred into a Phyc hospital.
He is living with me at the moment and is in a happier place than he was. I am still trying to get mum to understand that Suicide is permanent and there is No Attention to get when your DEAD! Go figure.
So dad is here cuddling my kids as much as he can. He is on the bottom bunk in Zach's room and Zachs loving it. The kids don't have any idea and just enjoying him being here.
Life is for living guys and girls. Live, Love, appreciate your mates.
Thanks guys, but I feel worse for posting it than I did before.........really cannot explain why??????
I am the same age as BA. My only contribution to this current discussion is that though I have never suffered depression, years ago I suffered from acute anxiety. My salvation was talking to someone about how I was feeling and my world changed.
Last year when diagnosed with Lymphoma, the only way I could make sense of my predicament was to talk about it. Even if the other person has no advice, sometimes just hearing yourself talk about it is enough to find a path. These days I still have highly anxious moments especially related to will it come back or won't it and if I try to ignore them it gets worse. So I talk to people about it. Sometimes my wife, sometimes a mate, sometimes even a relative stranger and my world starts to become right again......
I still think you need to talk to someone not just post up here... posting here is a start and its heads you off in the right direction but just talking out loud can make all the difference, it is best when the person you are talking to is a good listener and you need not have advice from them but just listen.
I know you may think of it as weakness mate talking about how you are feeling but it is not.... weakness is keeping it to yourself, it takes strength to reach out.
So please mate even if its to call the help line or beyond blue (this is what saved me 17 years ago from riding onto a railway crossing) talk to someone you will be amazed what a difference it can make.
There is no one on here that would think you are a woose for reaching out mate.......
Maybe another WA meet up is in order for us confused souls?
nothing better than nutting out the worlds problems around a Campfire with a few mates, I reckon,
saved me heaps of time .
Don't know if it helped anyone that was around our fire last night. But it surely had us in stitches some of the "personal" stories told. Could be called stress relief, reckon some could be referred to when feeling down. Your on to something TD.
Recently I copped a wise ass comment for an apology I posted. That is the crap that can add to a blokes problems.
Opening up and being honest is supposed to be good for you, when your ready Doggy.
For me I didn't let it bug me as the poster must have been totally ignorant of what had caused me to apologise. My previous post had been moderated.
Another time who knows.....